Volodya
Anton Chekhov
AT five o'clock one Sunday afternoon in summer, Volodya, a plain, shy, sickly-looking lad
of seventeen, was sitting in the arbour of the Shumihins' country villa, feeling dreary. His
despondent thought flowed in three directions. In the first place, he had next day, Monday,
an examination in mathematics; he knew that if he did not get through the written
examination on the morrow, he would be expelled, for he had already been two years in the
sixth form and had two and three-quarter marks for algebra in his annual report. In the
second place, his presence at the villa of the Shumihins, a wealthy family with aristocratic
pretensions, was a continual source of mortification to his amour-propre. It seemed to him
that Madame Shumihin looked upon him and his maman as poor relations and dependents,
that they laughed at his maman and did not respect her. He had on one occasion accidently
overheard Madame Shumihin, in the verandah, telling her cousin Anna Fyodorovna that his
maman still tried to look young and got herself up, that she never paid her losses at cards,
and had a partiality for other people's shoes and tobacco. Every day Volodya besought his
maman not to go to the Shumihins', and drew a picture of the humiliating part she played
with these gentlefolk. He tried to persuade her, said rude things, but she -- a frivolous,
pampered woman, who had run through two fortunes, her own and her husband's, in her
time, and always gravitated towards acquaintances of high rank -- did not understand him,
and twice a week Volodya had to accompany her to the villa he hated.
In the third place, the youth could not for one instant get rid of a strange, unpleasant feeling
which was absolutely new to him. . . . It seemed to him that he was in love with Anna
Fyodorovna, the Shumihins' cousin, who was staying with them. She was a vivacious, loud-
voiced, laughter-loving, healthy, and vigorous lady of thirty, with rosy cheeks, plump
shoulders, a plump round chin and a continual smile on her thin lips. She was neither young
nor beautiful -- Volodya knew that perfectly well; but for some reason he could not help
thinking of her, looking at her while she shrugged her plump shoulders and moved her flat
back as she played croquet, or after prolonged laughter and running up and down stairs,
sank into a low chair, and, half closing her eyes and gasping for breath, pretended that she
was stifling and could not breathe. She was married. Her husband, a staid and dignified
architect, came once a week to the villa, slept soundly, and returned to town. Volodya's
strange feeling had begun with his conceiving an unaccountable hatred for the architect, and
feeling relieved every time he went back to town.
Now, sitting in the arbour, thinking of his examination next day, and of his maman, at
whom they laughed, he felt an intense desire to see Nyuta (that was what the Shumihins
called Anna Fyodorovna), to hear her laughter and the rustle of her dress. . . . This desire
was not like the pure, poetic love of which he read in novels and about which he dreamed
every night when he went to bed; it was strange, incomprehensible; he was ashamed of it,
and afraid of it as of something very wrong and impure, something which it was
disagreeable to confess even to himself.
"It's not love," he said to himself. "One can't fall in love with women of thirty who are
married. It is only a little intrigue. . . . Yes, an intrigue. . . ."